pocketseizure: (Celes Chere)
- I decided not to participate in the Zelgan Big Bang, so I sent (what I sincerely hope was) an apologetic yet supportive set of messages to the mod, to the artist who offered to be my illustrator, and to the only other writer who submitted a story summary. I feel like a garbage human, but there was no way I would have been able submit my work by the deadline, especially not without community support.

- I went ahead and posted the first chapter of what was going to be my Big Bang story, The Price of Wisdom.

- I'm continuing to edit my Peach/Bowser smutfic, Claws and Lace. It's so awful, goddamn. There are some things I can fix, like small typos and repetitive adverbs, but some things are still entirely beyond my ability at this point, like actually being able to write decent prose.

- I posted my translation of another page from the newly released Hyrule Encyclopedia, as well as some meta providing a bit of cultural context.

- I drew a set of Wind Waker postcards for a friend (the same friend from this conversation).

- I answered a fun ask from a Tumblr mutual with a shitty drawing of Calamity Ganon.

- My Tumblr tag wrangling continues apace, and I also changed the theme of my blog, finally, after five years. I wish I could change my username as well, but Tumblr (unlike AO3, Dreamwidth, or DeviantArt) will not automatically map all instances of the old username to the new one, alas.
pocketseizure: (Gator Strut)
- I submitted a book review to a professional publication that requested it. I couldn't bring myself to read more than a few dozen pages of the book, which didn't seem to be proofread or copyedited, but the person who wrote it is a lovely older woman who has supported a lot of young people in her field and deserves to have nice things said about her work. I doubt that many people will read the book itself, as it's out of the price range for anyone except large institutional libraries, so I feel safe in having written formulaic pleasantries that are hopefully still specific enough to satisfy the author and her publisher.

- I finished the second chapter of The Price of Wisdom, the story I'm writing for the Zelgan Big Bang. This means I've still got four chapters to write. If I don't figure out a way to pick up the pace, I'm going to miss the deadline. Someone needs to wish me good luck on this, because I'm really going to need it.

- I wrote a short summary of the story to use as a standard AO3-style fic description, as well as a significantly longer summary to give the Big Bang artists a clear idea of what the story entails. I've been going back and forth about whether I want to participate in this event, but I finally signed up for it and went ahead and submitted my summaries to the mod, thus sealing my own stupid fate.

- I wrote some meta about environmental storytelling in The Wind Waker. God I love that game.

- Some dickbag left a reply on the post that I'm fairly certain was meant to make me feel shitty, but I took the opportunity to write more self-indulgent meta in the form of a civil response. You can always tell when someone has bad intentions when they leave a reply because, when you take the time to respond to them, they don't like or reblog or otherwise acknowledge the conversation in any way. Ah well, that's Tumblr for you. 

- I created a list of "Artists I Adore" on my Fandom Tags page on Tumblr. As I wrote when I started cleaning up my Tumblr tags, about once every five days or so someone will come onto my blog and like and/or reblog everything on a certain tag, which I think has something to do with the way the Tumblr mobile app works (if a user likes one post, it will suggest another). I'm not anything even remotely resembling a BNF, so I can't do much to support artists, but every little bit helps, right?
pocketseizure: (Cecil Palmer)
- I posted a new book review to my professional blog.

- I posted the ninth chapter of The Legend of the Princess.

- I edited the first eight chapters of the story for continuity (to retcon things, basically).

- I standardized my chapter posting format on Tumblr and cleaned things up a bit.

- I posted the illustration for the second chapter drawn by Lightsintheskye.

- I commissioned Ganondorf drawn in a shōjo style from Camalilium.

- I drew a shitty birthday present for my dear friend Krokodilov.

- I beat Breath of the Wild, fiNALLY.
pocketseizure: (Mog Toast)
This week consisted of a nice vacation in Tokyo in which I took a lot of long walks and ate a lot of delicious things. I got back in to DC yesterday afternoon, and I have been awake since 1:30 this morning. What is time, what is space, do these concepts even mean anything. I don't dislike traveling, but it messes up my writing schedule, and I hope I can get back into a good routine again soon. Still...

- I wrote the first chapter of the Zelgan Big Bang fic. Since I wrote a lengthy story outline so quickly, I thought it would be easy to write the actual story, but... nope. If I don't pick up the pace, there's no way I'm going to finish by the deadline.

- I finally finished writing the Peach/Bowser smutfic, god have mercy on my soul. This is probably the trashiest garbage I have ever produced in my life. It needs (a lot) more editing, but Sunday has somehow become my designated Day of Posting, so up it goes.

- I put up a new post on my video game blog that is essentially a clarification and expansion of my short essay on Seymour. I thought I would put some actual work into this and submit it somewhere, but honestly, who even cares about Final Fantasy X anymore.

- I worked hard on Instagram this week, I really did my best.
pocketseizure: (Mog Toast)
- This week I did my job. It was not unpleasant, but not easy either.

- I wrote a 5,000 word report regarding my business in Akita.

- I was really surprised to find that some of the questions I was asked to answer in my report reflected weird American stereotypes concerning Asians ("Did you find that [people] were able to voice their opinions instead of acting according to group consensus?") and the Japanese ("Were [people] unnecessarily cruel in any situation?"), so I had a long (to the tune of about four thousand words) email conversation with my liaison in which I requested that this racist nonsense be rectified.

- I wrote a slightly different version of the report in Japanese that weighed in at about 4,000 characters.

- I got invited to visit the North American headquarters of Nintendo in November. I accepted this invitation, OBVIOUSLY.
pocketseizure: (Needs More Zelda)
- I put up a new book review on my professional blog.

- I put up a new post on my gaming blog.

- I flew to Japan.

- I'm so goddamn jetlagged, holy fuck.

- I'm doing my best on Instagram, I am trying really hard.
pocketseizure: (Default)
- I told myself that I wasn't going to participate in the Zelgan Big Bang, but then I got the most perfect idea, which I outlined to the tune of about fifteen hundred words. Basically I want to write (a highly condensed version of) A Hundred Years of Solitude set in the universe of Breath of the Wild. Even if no one ends up reading it, it's more or less writing itself, so I'm not too concerned.

- In the meantime, I sneezed and four thousand words of Peach/Bowser smutfic came out. This story (such as it is) needs another thousand or so words and a lot of editing, but I'll probably post it at some point over the coming week.

- I commissioned Kathryn Layno to draw a more mature version of Princess Zelda – Queen Zelda, if you will – as an illustration for The Marriage of Lanayru, and she did good work (link).

- I commissioned Promsien on Tumblr to draw Calamity Ganondorf, or what Calamity Ganon would look like in Breath of the Wild if it had a human form. She came up with something truly incredible (link), which has fueled me with inspiration to write the Big Bang fic.

- I kicked off the process of commissioning Lightsintheskye to illustrate The Legend of the Princess, and we've already got one illustration squared away. I'm not sure that she'll post it; and, if she doesn't, I might wait until I've recommenced work on the story to post it myself. In any case, this artist is an absolute joy to work with, and I'm starting to get the feeling that her talent doesn't have any real limits. This is a little scary, but it's also kind of awesome.

- Commissioning people actually involves a lot of writing, not to mention a great deal of creative and emotional energy. On one hand, you could say that I'm just as bad as one of those furries from the 2000s who commissioned multiple artists to draw their Neopet personas. On the other hand, you could say that I am very passionate about art and writing and storytelling, and that I'm simply using The Legend of Zelda as my current medium. I'll move on eventually, but for the time being I think I'm doing good work where I am.

- I translated two pages from the newly released Hyrule Encyclopedia and then reblogged them with added commentary (here and here).

- More tag wrangling on Tumblr. I removed a lot of stuff that I didn't particularly care for yet reblogged just to be nice to the artists and/or the fandom. This made me feel horrible, but it was cathartic. I also deleted a bunch of entries here on Dreamwidth in which I was trying to process my feelings about Tumblr-based Zelda fandom. That nonsense is childish and not worth my time.
pocketseizure: (Celes Chere)
- The essay I wrote about Twilight Princess is going off to press, so I went through the galleys to make sure everything looks okay. The editor did a wonderful job with my writing, and the page layout editor did a wonderful job with the images, so this was actually pretty easy.

- An essay I wrote about Tokyo Jungle back when the game came out years and years ago is finally going off to press as well, but the publisher pulled some shenanigans and said that I can't include the epigraph. Since I refer to this epigraph multiple times throughout the essay, I had to copy and paste it into a block quote while slightly reframing the introduction. The actual edits weren't taxing, but I had to put some serious effort into anger management.

- I finished The Museum of Hyrule, dividing the last chapter into two chapters due to length and thematic structure. I also ran the full story through another set of edits, and I think it's pretty good. Although I've been outlining the plot for some time now, a complete 14k word fic in a month is a pretty major accomplishment. Good job team. Although honestly, this was a huge amount of work for me. I can't believe that some people are able to write a full 60k word novel for Nanowrimo, how is that even possible.

- I really love Erin Lyn Hardacre's illustrations based on Ocarina of Time (here's an example), so I commissioned her to draw Zelda and Ganondorf sharing a look of mutual acknowledgment (which she posted here). In order for flowers to bloom in spring, the earth must first be prepared by the storms of autumn, and the seasons progress in an endless cycle. In this illustration, Zelda and Ganondorf take a moment to respect each other's roles in this cycle, and the flowers framing their bodies give the piece a lovely art nouveau feel. What I've always appreciated about the artist's work is the kindness and compassion she brings to her subjects, and she did a fantastic job with this commission, rendering both characters as human and sympathetic.

- It seems that some of the images embedded in the author's notes of my fic on AO3 weren't loading, so I went in and checked what was going on. I had been hosting the images on Tumblr, and it looks like some of the URLs changed. I updated the code, but I'm going to need to start thinking about moving the images to a more stable location. In any case, I also added an "Illustrated" tag to the appropriate stories.

- More tag wrangling on Tumblr. Aside from editing individual posts, I also updated my list of tags, where it seems that a good half dozen of the links had been removed for no reason at all. This actually isn't the first time this has happened, so it's a good thing that I keep checking to make sure everything works. Fucking Tumblr, I swear.
pocketseizure: (Terra Branford)
My goal for this week was to not let inane bullshit bother me. As you might imagine, I was not entirely successful, but I did not express my annoyance or anger even once. Drinking definitely helped, I was so right about this being the case. Also:

- I sent off an abstract to an essay collection about gender and horror, which is going to be published by a very! nice!! press. I wrote the essay back in 2014, but I never submitted it anywhere because I was living in Indiana and too busy hunting moose on the tundra. Now that I'm reading the essay again, I realize exactly how dark and dangerous my mental state was at the time, but I suppose that's appropriate to the theme. Anyway, it's a good essay, and I wrote a good abstract for it, and I hope it gets accepted.

- I wrote a short fic about Breath of the Wild after reading a super epic thread about the ontology of Calamity Ganon on the Zelda Universe forums. I was thinking that this would serve as a pilot piece for a longer project, but it didn't get any notes or kudos, so... maybe not. I mean, fandom is weird, and you can't win all the time.

- I've been editing some of my earlier fic, mainly for minor typos (for example, I would write "loathe to admit" instead of "loath to admit"), which I'd say I'm now finding at the rate of about one per every four thousand words. Going through my old fic is a slow process, but it's not as painful as it used to be.

- Actually some of my old fic is really good! When I read it again I was kind of surprised??

- It's weird to list this as an accomplishment, but I got started on some tag wrangling on Tumblr. If I keep up with this at a steady rate, it's going to take a long, long time, but I think it's worth doing. About once every four or five days I will get someone who comes onto my blog and likes everything in a certain tag, so I feel that it's a meaningful project to make sure all the tags are in order.

- I drew a picture of Princess Peach being cute. I had intended for this to be a longterm practice piece for coloring in Photoshop, but then I was just like, eh fuck it. I've been watching tutorial videos and picking up a few things here and there, but my progress is slow. In the meantime, it's not fair to expect my work to be perfect, and being able to post one "finished" image a week is a reasonable goal, right?

And now – like literally right now – I am going to get on a plane and fly to France. Au revoir dudes!
pocketseizure: (Cecil Palmer)
I never get as much writing done as I think I'm going to. For some reason I always forget that everything takes so long. Why does everything take so long?? I don't know, I don't even know. But anyway...

- I posted the second chapter of my Zelgan fic The Museum of Hyrule. No one is reading it, but it is REALLY GOOD or at least really specific to my interests.

- I posted a new book review to my professional blog.

- I made two longish posts on my video game blog. The first is about how much I like Breath of the Wild, and the second is about my concerns with the game's story. Basically, it is sexist and racist and also a little homophobic. I mean, I love Breath of the Wild so much that it's borderline pathological, but someone needs to come out and say that it's not a 100/100 perfect game, you know?

- I wrote a critical essay about a certain aspect of Breath of the Wild that is problematic but makes a whole lot more sense when you consider that the game is Japanese. I posted this essay on Tumblr but made it long and difficult to reblog because I didn't particularly feel like dealing with a new batch of rape threats this week. As a result, the essay didn't get a lot of attention, but the one or two people I wanted to see it did in fact see it, which is all that counts in the end.

- I made one stupid drunken shitpost about Zelda that got some notes, and then I made another stupid drunken shitpost about Zelda that got more notes, and also I made a third stupid and very drunken shitpost about Zelda that sort of got out of control. The moral of this story is that I should get a life.

- I drew a picture of Link from Spirit Tracks. Hooray!

- I contributed almost nothing to this aside from some encouragement, but Ari-Draws-Things on Tumblr made a cute little comic in two parts (one and two) based on one of my stories. I am so honored and delighted!!

My goal for next week is to try not to get upset over stupid and petty nonsense. I may be wrong, but I think the solution probably involves alcohol. Taking a drink every time I start to feel sad and worthless will not be easy, but I am very committed to my mental health.
pocketseizure: (Default)
My mission this week was to buy clothes and shoes for my work trip to Paris, and I accomplished that mission. Since I'm getting ready to go abroad, I've been really busy at the office, and next week is going to be even worse. In the meantime, this is what I accomplished...

- I sent off the final edits for a longish book review that will hopefully be published in September.

- I sent back the galley proofs for my contribution to a book that will hopefully also come out in September. Its listing just went up on Amazon, and the cover is beautiful.

- I posted the first chapter of my Contemporary AU Zelda/Ganondorf fic The Museum of Hyrule, which I've been fooling around with for more than six months now. I was planning on waiting to post this story until I had completely finished writing it, but whatever. I can sometimes be delusional about my own work, but I think this fic is really good. I'm excited about it, and I want other people to be excited about it too.

- I commissioned Cockismybusiness on Tumblr to draw me a picture of Princess Zelda from Breath of the Wild as the fierce and determined scholar that she is. I got sick of seeing her crying all the time in people's fan art, you know? Cocky and I had a good conversation about this, and then she drew the most perfect thing in response. I'm always so impressed by her work, and it's cool that we're friendly. She is one funny motherfucker on Twitter, and I sort of wish I had the emotional energy to spend more time there so that I could retweet everything she writes without it being weird. Anyway, this was a good commission, and it makes me happy.

My goal for next week is to stop being so lazy and useless and cowardly and draw some stuff.
pocketseizure: (Cecil Palmer)
The only thing I did this week was to write and memorize a 3,800 word paper. It wasn't my best work, but I can now say that I have delivered a lecture about Steven Universe at a prestigious East Coast art school. I am very special and important, lol forever.

I don't talk about it here, and I certainly don't talk about it on Tumblr, but I really love Steven Universe, and what I'm especially interested in are the career trajectories of the lead writers and artists. I argued that these people came from fandom cultures and brought the concerns of their fandoms with them into mainstream media. I mean, this isn't really an argument so much as it is a compilation of data. Like, if you're on Tumblr, you watch this happen over and over and over again. Writers and artists have to come from somewhere, after all. I suppose that what's interesting about Steven Universe is that it clearly indicates that the talent pool is becoming more visibly diverse and inclusive, as contemporary fandom culture (very broadly speaking) tends to encourage and support diversity and inclusivity. Disney has also been fairly diverse since at least the late 1980s, but they've always been at pains to hide that diversity behind white male directors and producers. It's not my business to predict the future, but it's my hope that this is changing.

Anyway, I also made a PowerPoint slideshow, which was very pretty with lots of slide transition animations. One can never have enough sparkles, but I may have come close.

As a means of procrastinating on all of this, I also wrote a one-shot fic based on something a friend on Tumblr said about Ganondorf being a shitty evil uncle to a bunch of adorable Gerudo girls. Even though things didn't turn out well for him in Ocarina of Time, Ganondorf had a lot of supporters among the Gerudo, and it's reasonable to assume that he probably brought back really nice presents that he looted from the corpses of the people he killed in Hyrule, right?
pocketseizure: (Needs More Zelda)
Good protest yesterday, good protest. I was surprised at how many people from other countries came out. Maybe it's "protest tourism," but it gives me a small measure of hope to see people coming to DC from all over the world to raise their voices against injustice. I'd prefer if this weren't because our president is edging humanity a step closer to nuclear annihilation with every passing day, but still. Anyway...

- I finished and posted the last chapter of The Marriage of Lanayru on AO3. I also edited and posted the ninth and tenth chapters on FFN. Zelda and Ganondorf have sex and Hyrule is saved forever. Hooray!

- I posted two Super Mario shiptrash illustrations to Tumblr. The key demographic for this consists of me, but I am amused enough by human Bowser's jealousy toward beefcake Mario to make up for everyone else on the internet. I know I keep saying this, but it continues to be true.

- Someone tagged me on a post about Ganondorf, so I put about three hours of work into writing a meticulously researched 250-word response. Why did I expend so much time and effort? This is why I will never advance in my career.

- I got drunk the other night and wrote a bizarre shitpost about Wind Waker. It got a relatively high number of notes, which goes to show that the reception of any given post on Tumblr is completely fucking aleatory.

- I commissioned Naimly on Tumblr to draw Wind Waker Ganondorf, and oh my goodness did she ever produce the most wonderful thing. If we ever shoot up another Voyager into space, someone should put her illustration on a copper disk to represent the genius of the human race, I am not even joking. It was an absolute pleasure to work with Naimly, and I enjoyed every single one of our interactions. I think I'm getting better about communicating with artists, and this collaboration was particularly successful. She did the lion's share of the work, of course, but it was still incredible to see my ideas and suggestions gradually take shape as a gorgeous image.

Nothing bad happened this week, and everything was okay. I got a lot of work done and felt good about it. I'm starting to make progress in Breath of the Wild, which is honestly more satisfying and fulfilling than any real-life progress I could achieve at the moment. I am the hero of Hyrule, don't judge me.
pocketseizure: (Teh Bowz)
Something really shitty and awful happened to me this week, so to distract myself I cleaned my apartment, changed the oil and tires on my car, took my dog to the groomers, got a haircut, and filed my taxes. All in a week's work, dudes. But there's more!

- I finally posted the ninth chapter of The Marriage of Lanayru on AO3, and I edited and posted the seventh and eighth chapters on FFN. I tweaked a few things in the earlier chapters, and I've written about half of the tenth and final chapter. Have my writing and editing skills gotten better over the course of all the many hours I've devoted to this project? Not even a little! I can't wait for this story to be finished, because I'm boring myself – all my Zelda fic is starting to feel a little like Gerudo Lives Matter: Link's Wokening.

- I posted a shitty derivative comic about Peach and Bowser on Tumblr. I should really stop using the same bullshit flat pastel colors and learn to use Photoshop, but I am so lazy, it's disgusting.

- I got another citation on Wikipedia, two of the books that my work is appearing in now have preorder pages up on Amazon, and I accepted my first four-digit honorarium for a speaking engagement. None of this is technically an accomplishment, but goddamn it feels gud yussssss.

Now that it's warm again, I've resumed drinking. Suddenly my self-confidence and motivation have returned, how about that. Life keeps throwing emotional firebombs at me, but I have enough alcohol on hand to ride out an entire apocalypse of feelings, so I think I'm okay.
pocketseizure: (Needs More Zelda)
I'm stuck on the second-to-last chapter of a fic that I've grown to hate, and I keep drawing thumbnails and panels for comics that I will never finish because I suck at art. I can't even look at either of my book manuscripts because my own writing annoys me.

Right now I'm sitting in a very dark place, and I'm having trouble finding the motivation to stand up and walk away.

On the other hand, I've been completing about one shrine a day in Breath of the Wild, so there's always that. That's about twenty down, which means there's only a hundred more to go, haha... ha.....
pocketseizure: (Cecil Harvey)
- On Wednesday I gave a public lecture at a big regional arts college. I've been preparing for this for months. I wrote an 8,000 word essay, edited it down to about 4,700 words, and then memorized it. I've been scanning (and stealing) images for weeks, and I'm proud of how pretty my slideshow turned out to be. The talk didn't go perfectly, but I did okay. These things are more about the boozy lunches and dinners afterward than they are about the actual presentation, and I got to have some really interesting conversations with a handful of professional artists and their students.

- I finished the fifth and final part of my comic about the Wind Waker final boss battle, and then I recolored each of the separate parts from the line art so that I could post them all together (link). Probably I am the only person who thinks this comic is funny, but that's okay. I am a unique and special snowflake who makes unique and special snowflake comics about fifteen year old games, whatever. Everyone needs a hobby.

That's all for this week. Idk, I'm feeling ambivalent about fandom at the moment.
pocketseizure: (Cecil Harvey)
Sometimes I feel like I need to compulsively read every half-finished book and graphic novel lying around my apartment, as well as every online article and piece of fic that I've bookmarked in the past several months. This was one of those weeks. Still, I managed to do some things...

- I wrote 580 words of my manuscript introduction. Last week I wrote 323 words. In the meantime I deleted hundreds of other words, which was unpleasant. It would be nice if I could find my stride, but in the meantime I keep telling myself that if I continue to plunk away at my keyboard this stupid shitty thing will get done eventually.

- I finished the fifth chapter of my book on The Wind Waker. My process entails writing about three thousand words, letting them sit for a few days, and then editing the document down to about two thousand words. My objective is to cut out most of the geeky ranting that no one cares about. Although I intend for this to change later in the manuscript, at this point each "chapter" corresponds to a "level" in the game.

- I wrote and posted the eighth chapter of The Marriage of Lanayru. Two more to go! In this chapter I wrote an extended Marxist critique of Hyrule from Ganondorf's perspective, but then I deleted it because no one wants to read that. I ended up turning the monologue into a comic script, which I may draw later... or not.

- I drew Peach in a cute princess dress, mainly because I'm sick of drawing men but also because I like cute princess dresses. I had a ton of ideas for pattern detailing to use for her halo and the lace on her dress, but then I got bored and just posted the simple version of the piece. What can I say, I am lazy.

- I drew a stupid comic about my postgame headcanon for Link's younger sister Aryll, because goddamn I think she would make an awesome pirate queen. This comic was mainly an experiment with the paint bucket tool I've been using (poorly) to add color to my drawings. I've decided that 30% saturation is good for the background, but that the characters in the foreground need to be at a minimum of 50% saturation, with important details (like eyes) at 60%. As I did with the Peach drawing, I "stained" the line art with the dominant color of the palette at around 15% and then used the color hue tools to adjust the overall tone of the canvas accordingly.

- I broke my own stupid rule about doing things for non-mutuals and drew a comic illustrating someone's shitpost about Wind Waker Ganondorf being a depressed gay uncle. Little Miss Sunshine is one of the defining texts of my adult life, and I couldn't resist. There was no planning or premeditation to this comic; I just drew it and posted it and now a thing that nobody wanted exists in the world. Eh, whatever.

None of this got any positive feedback, but that's because I'm not good enough. My writing is not good enough. My drawing is not good enough. I need to work harder.
pocketseizure: (Needs More Zelda)
This week I played a bunch of Zelda and wrote a bunch of meta. Also!

- I posted the seventh chapter of The Marriage of Lanayru to AO3 and the sixth chapter to FFN. I've significantly altered the way I proofread, and I'm starting to see fewer typos and redundancies when I go back to edit each chapter for the final FFN post. The story is still stupid and my writing still sucks, but what can you do.

- I posted the fourth part of the Wind Waker Final Boss Battle comic. Only one more to go! My style is laughably inconsistent, and I'm probably going to have to start over from the linework if I want to put all of the segments together in one post, but I'll worry about that when the time comes.

- I posted the second entry in my Breath of the Wild sketch diary. Maybe "sketch diary" isn't the right expression for what I'm doing so much as "staring at my tv screen and copying character designs," but whatever, it's all good.

- My stories and drawings are complete shit, and I say this as a narcissist who has no use for modesty. It constantly amazes me that anyone cares enough to like and reblog my stuff, so I drew a comic about what a simultaneously alienating and uplifting experience online fandom can be.

- I commissioned Miraculoustang on Tumblr to draw Peach because I love her style and I am always thirsty for quality Mario art. She took the commission and produced the piece quickly, which I appreciate, and the end result is really cool. It didn't get a lot of notes because people have no taste for some reason, but I love my beautiful wife.

I'm working on other things, but I am lazy and progress is slow. I could probably get more done if I stopped playing Breath of the Wild, but that's just not going to happen.
pocketseizure: (Needs More Zelda)
Okay, well. This week I mostly played video games. Still...

- I posted the sixth chapter of The Marriage of Lanayru. This story is turning out to be really stupid, but almost no one is reading it, so I DO WHAT I WANT.

- I edited the fourth and fifth chapters of the story and posted them on FFN. The fifth chapter especially was a mess, and I had to retcon a minor detail. Who is even keeping track of the plot, idk, certainly not me.

- I posted roughly five hundred words of bullshit about my wife Ganondorf Breath of the Wild on Tumblr.

- I love the character designs in Breath of the Wild! I've been keeping something resembling a sketch diary as I play through the game, and I posted the first entry on Tumblr. My art (lol "art" haha) is godawful. I have to keep reminding myself that I am hurting literally no one by sharing it.

- I posted a new guest review on my professional book review blog. The dude who wrote it is not just brilliant but also a good person, and it made me so happy to tweet his work to the publisher. He deserves all the professional attention he can get.

- I did a peer review for an application submitted to an international fellowship. Generally I want people to be happy and successful, but the application was utter garbage, and it was difficult and painful to write a set of comments. I don't feel good about having done this, to be honest. I should have declined the invitation as soon as I learned that the organization wanted me to serve as the third reviewer (generally there are two reviewers for things like this, and a third reviewer is only called in if there are problems). I probably ruined someone's life, and I didn't even get paid for it. Next time, JUST SAY NO.

- I wrote about five hundred words of the introduction of that book manuscript I was supposed to submit back in August. Woo hoo, making progress... *dies*

I guess I'm getting back into the swing of things, which is nice. Breath of the Wild is a lot of fun, and playing it is giving me life. Next week will also be good! Stay strong!!
pocketseizure: (Ganondorf)
My pneumonia got worse this past week, and to make a long story short I had to go to the hospital. After being sick for so long, finally being able to receive treatment was actually quite pleasant. I'm doing much better now, thank goodness. Despite everything, this is what I managed to accomplish:

- I'm still leaning way the fuck out of my career, but I updated all of my professional profile pages to reflect recent publications and public lectures and so on. Honestly this doesn't matter to anyone, because no one in the world would have any reason to care about what I do professionally. Still, I'm trying to negotiate a raise alongside my contract renewal, so I suppose it's good to have all my files in order. For what it's worth, I recently found out that my starting salary was almost $10,000 less than that of my male peers in my hiring cohort, and I suspect the strongly worded letter from my lawyer will probably have more of an effect on my employer's decision than this update to my portfolio, but it feels good to pretend like I'm in control.

- I beat A Link Between Worlds for the sixth(? I think) time, woot woot.

- I posted the fifth chapter of The Marriage of Lanayru. The story now has 25 kudos, 18 of which are anonymous. There are still a lot of old-school fans hanging around who say they won't read stories that have such a high ratio of anonymous to signed kudos, but I treasure every single one of my kudos regardless of where it came from. If it's the same person leaving a new kudo on every chapter, I don't even care, that person is a saint of fanfic.

- I edited the second and third chapters of the story and posted them on FFN (and updated them on AO3 and Tumblr). Since these two chapters were written before I decided to significantly simplify the story, there was a bit of retcon involved. In any case, I've gotten some very nice comments on FFN, all of which have filled me with love and joy and positivity.

- A few weeks ago I commissioned Blizzarderful to do a speculative illustration of Zelda and Ganondorf in a grungy retrofuture environment, and holy wow did she ever deliver. I set the image as the background of my laptop, and I'm finding new and interesting details literally every single day. This illustration got almost no notes primarily because of the way it was tagged, which is a damn shame – I really wish more people in the Zelda fandom could see it.

- A few months ago I commissioned Greencladprince to draw me some Princess Peach and Human!Bowser, and we've been working on the character designs in stages. The finished product has finally been posted, and it is so awesome I can't even. This sort of thing is super niche and was never going to get a lot of notes, but I regret nothing. I am responsible for bringing art into the world, bros, ART.

After lying in a hospital bed and reflecting on various things, I'm starting to feel very salty about certain aspects of fandom. Specifically, despite everyone's insistent avowal of progressive politics, there really isn't a lot of tolerance for diversity or support for creators who operate outside the mainstream. Maybe I'll write about this later, or probably I won't, but I think the important thing to remember is that human endeavor is meaningless and we all die alone.


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